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Wednesday, March 4th, 2009
12:11 am	The Past Has Revisted I got a very good email the other day. It was an apology from someone that I did not think that I would really hear from again. She didn't need to apologize to me as I had forgiven her years ago, but it was really nice to see that. While I hope that we can perhaps continue the discussion (at one point she was a very good friend), it sounds like she has a lot going on in her life and just needed to get something off her chest instead of trying to "catch up" or what have you. Which is completely fair. I do hope things are alright though. As for everything else: School is actually starting to wind down. I could be looking at my last foray into formalized education. Which is both good and bad. I'll miss the lifestyle (ie summers off) but I'll appreciate the freedom and stability in my life. I do need to start looking for a job soon. I'd ask you guys if you had any suggestions but since there are 0 people who still read this, I'm not holding out any hope. Spring is here and that means more sports! I'm in a couple soccer leagues, a softball league I'm trying to start up and warm weather means I get to play tennis more. All very exciting things. I just hope my shoulder doesn't pop out of place again. That would suck. I'm preparing to spend the next few years of my life in Washington D.C. It's going to be awesome to actually have some sort of stability. I have moved at least once a year every year since 2002. Nearly 7 years now! I'm done moving. Done packing everything up. I need to put some roots down for a bit. It looks like D.C. will be that place. That was the goal though, for a long time. Save for my grandfather's death recently, things have been going very well. I'm having a good time. No time to focus on the bad things anymore, this semester is going much better than last. This summer should be a good time. (Comment on this)
Friday, January 23rd, 2009
5:35 pm	More to come later A few things though Visited NJ for the first time since March of 08. That was a lot of fun Went to the Presidential Inauguration, obviously fun, though cold too Other good developments are taking place as well (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 6th, 2009
1:47 pm	Things are changing Wow, so much has changed so quickly So on Sunday, I was having a really good day. My friend Lance called me up and asked if I wanted to go see Slumdog Millionaire at the E Street Cinema. I like that place and heard good things about that movie and so I said sure let's do it. We see the movie and it was really really good. I really liked it. I plan on going back to that theater every other week to see something. I want to see Milk and Doubt and this other one that's playing there right now. It should be a good time as long as I find people to go with. Anyway after the movie we head to a bar for a drink and are hanging out there and having a good time. It was really a nice night until I get home. I see then on Facebook that one of my best friends from my childhood was murdered earlier in the day in Charlotte NC and then I see that Andrea got back with her ex boyfriend. Those two things definitely took my night down. I had been really close to Jay growing up. There were times that he would have been considered my best friend for awhile when Jason wasn't around as much anymore. I haven't talked to him in maybe 5 or 6 years. We grew apart pretty quickly. Actually I grew apart from all of my childhood friends basically for awhile when a lot of them started using drugs and I didn't. I stayed somewhat close to some of them and still talk to a few of them and I'm extremely happy that Jason has gotten his life turned around. I talked to him for a bit yesterday about all of this. It's just crazy. I want to go to the funeral but I doubt that I'll be able to. As for Andrea, well when I found out about that I got very angry. Not completely angry at her, though there was some of that, but angry about everything. I feel like I was used. This has happened to me before. I enter someone's life at a time when they need someone like me, I help them with their life and figure things out, and then when I"m not needed, they just want to be friends because I'm one of the nicest people in the world. The biggest thing about this was that she had about a billion opportunities to tell me and she chose the non-confrontational route. I had to find out from facebook. She let me continue to email her telling her how much I still liked her and wanted a relationship and she was never direct with me. Things could have been a lot easier if she would have told me straight up earlier. However, it's been over 24 hours. Yesterday was kind of rough for awhile. I had sent her an email expressing my thoughts about it but she didn't reply. I honestly don't expect her to reply. All I would like from her now though is just an apology. A two sentence email would suffice. I'm not really mad at her anymore. She is doing what makes her the happiest. That's all I want. If the little fling we had for a few months ends up making her and Chris stronger and better then that's great. It really is. I really do want her and them to be happy and good. Eventually I would just like someone to be the happiest they can be with me. I know it'll happen and I'm not worried that it won't. It just can really suck sometimes when you think you found that person and then they don't think the same. What I've learned from this situation is that when you take some big risks there can be high rewards or some major losses. I ignored all of the red flags and all of my personal rules of dating for this. I took a big chance and followed my heart. There are tons of lessons here to be learned but I know myself. I would do the same thing all over again, well with a few adjustments. I don't really regret anything that happened with Andrea, I do wish it could have began and ended differently but hey that's life. I don't know when/if I'll ever talk to her again. I left it up to her to begin communication again with me. I know that probably means that she won't because she'll be concerned with how I'm feeling, but she said she wanted me to be in her life. Besides, I don't think Chris will be too happy with me and Andrea being friends. He already puts a lot of blame on me for them breaking up in October, so if it will make them stronger and happier to put all of the blame on me for that, then that's fine. Though long term they're probably avoiding some issues, right now it's probably good for them. Anyway, yesterday was a bad day for other reasons too. I couldn't pick up my paycheck because of not being registered for enough classes. That should be solved by the end of this week and hopefully I'll get my paycheck then as well. Ugh another class.... but that means I'm taking a class on Capitol Hill whoo hoo Also Ohio State lost last night, but it actually was a really good game and Ohio State didn't get blown out! Haha that was the important thing here. I'm looking forward to next year already. Well one of my big goals this semester is to take advantage of DC more. So I'm trying to come up with a list of places to go and things to see. I'm already planning a trip to the Portrait gallery when they open the Lincoln exhibit and I would like to see the Newseum. Also looking at getting tickets to see the White House, Supreme Court and Capitol building. I need to find some new bars and other nightlife attractions too. I want to see something at the Kennedy Center at some point too. So much to look forward to. I'm also looking to volunteer at a few different places as well. I applied for a volunteer job at the National Zoo with the monkeys, though honestly I would love to have one with the Cheetahs lol At the same time that I'm planning on seeing a lot more of DC, I'm also planning some trips to Boston, CT and NJ. So that should be fun as well. So much to do this year. 2009 started off on a very very bad foot for me, but I refuse to let that get me down. I'm going to have a really good year this year. I'm also going to find someone that really wants to be with me and find a job/place to be at for the next 3 years of my life. Next step is to get some Ohio people to move out here haha (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 3rd, 2009
10:15 pm	It's time for a change I haven't posted a lot in livejournal. Mostly because well it is livejournal. The connotation attached to having a livejournal at my age is well, not a good one haha. Anyway, livejournal helps me gather my thoughts and write out things that I feel like I either need to say or to express so I can fully comprehend my own thoughts. 2008 is over now though. I look back on that year as one that start rough and ended rough with about 2.5 good months total (June, July and a few weeks in Oct-Nov). It was a tough year mentally, emotionally and physically for me. Mentally: I got burnt out by school in May and never fully recovered this semester. As I slowly came to the realization that I did not like graduate school and that I didn't want to spend my life doing this, things got even tougher. Motivation dropped, comprehension of the material ceased and things just got tough mentally for me. Emotionally: There were a few bright spots, notably Kristin and Donnie getting married! That was awesome! I was able to connect with my friends in Ohio this summer and make a lot of new friends earlier this semester. However my grandmother passed away in October and 2 weeks later, my dad got re-married. Add to that the fact that I was broken up with twice this past year and it made for a trying year emotionally. Physically: I have always had a weird medical history. I don't think I need to run through it here, but let's not forget the spontaneous collapse of my lung. In fact, that might be causing me some more problems now as I've had a little scare at the end of the year with my health. That is still pending though. Also the dislocation of my shoulder happened playing soccer earlier this year. That threw a lot of things off for me. I do not like being physically hurt. Overall as I look back to 2008, I'm not proud of myself very much. I feel like I made a lot of mistakes this past year. Let's run through the big ones 1) Causing problems with Shannon without realizing it. I was not a great boyfriend to her and I took her for granted a lot. I have tried a little bit to make amends with her but for the first few months of 2008, I was oblivious to this, but I caused most of the problems and made things worse. She definitely deserved better than me. 2) Losing motivation for school. I totally blew it off sometimes. I got caught in a cycle that just added a lot of stress and contributed to me getting burnt out in May. The grades that I got I definitely deserved but I could have done so much better. In fact in both semesters of 2008 I know that I could have done a lot better, but I am too much of a slacker 3) Not getting a job in the summer. I had the greatest summer ever. All I did was play soccer, mow lawn and go to weddings. It was a lot of fun. Yet I entered the summer in good financial shape. I tried to get a job, I didn't really want a full time 40+ hour job. I turned down working construction with my cousin, though I had actually really liked that job. I remember coming into the summer with hopes of actually getting back on track for grad school. I ended summer with basically no money and nothing accomplished at all. 4) The Andrea situation. I don't regret anything at all. Not a chance. However I'm not proud of how everything happened. I definitely broke my own relationship rules (nearly all of them in fact lol) and looking back, I know that no one is happy with how the situation went down. Despite my self-interest in the situation, I did feel very bad with what ended up happening. I also think that because I was not proud of my involvement in it, I tried to push everything about that situation away, which made things with Andrea and I so so so much worse and definitely contributed to our own problems. Fortunately there are many things to look forward to in 2009: -I'm graduating in May with a Masters degree in Political Science that I did not have to pay a dime for -I scored two tickets to the Inauguration -I get another chance to figure out my life I've already made some changes in my life that I like - I bought a new wardrobe. It was my Christmas present from "Santa" and I am very happy about it. I bought jeans, non-cargo khakis, sweaters, shirts, new shoes and socks. I look like a grown up now! - I'm making changes to my room and apartment. I'm tired of it looking so much like a dorm room. It's time to live in a place that's less like college Add to that my New Year's resolutions and things are starting off on a good foot. Here are my resolutions 1) Keep working out: I was pretty happy with where I was until I dislocated my shoulder in September. I'm planning to rehab my shoulder more and then re-do the 100 push up challenge. I just want to get some more upper body mass. Also my roommate Carl is putting in a weight bench in our apartment too so perhaps I'll have even more motivation. 2) Spend less time on the internet: I am on the internet way too much, especially Gmail. I am trying to slowly cut back my time on the internet. It'll take awhile but as long as I keep it as a conscious thought I think I'll get much better at it. 3) Figure out my life: This has tangible goals to it. I want to find a location and a job that I'm going to work at for the next 3 years of my life. I figure that this will be one of the last times in my life where I'll have an opportunity free of attachments to go some place and do something that I want to do. I hope that I'll be on the marriage track by the time I'm 28 (if not before? lol) so at that point I'll have to make a joint decision. At this moment though, I can take a good look around the country at a lot of different opportunities 4) Take advantage of DC more: It's here and I always just assume that I'll get around to seeing everything one day. Well no more, I'm putting a 2 attractions per month rule in my book of rules. It helps that I have a lot of visitors but I need to start going places and doing things and see exhibits more, even if it's by myself. So I like those resolutions and I think I can keep them. Well I know that I'll at least try. The goal really though is for me to start being more of an "adult" than the quasi man-child that I feel like I am now. I have been desperately clinging to the high school/undergrad life style that I've had for a long time now. I need to do a little bit of growing up. I'm not meaning that I'm going to change my personality or who I am, but mostly I'm going to start living a life that I've wanted to for awhile but have been strangely reluctant to embrace. However now it's time to work on NYR2 (New Years Resolution #2) (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
10:41 pm	Been a long time... 68 weeks since I last updated. I'm too tired to write anything in here now, but maybe I'll put something up here sometime soon again (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 24th, 2007
9:14 pm	Good things Stupid people made me make this friends only So there have been a lot of good things going on in my life recently Let's do a play by play action of the last few days first then talk about the future This whole past week was fun. We had a retreat on Monday and Tuesday of this past week and though we all had to present an analysis of our territory (which I still have to send to my boss whoops) it was fun. Monday night we went bowling which was a lot of fun as well. Our team won!!! We were named "Bowling Balls of Steele" haha but we were actually all pretty decent. I found out that my knees didn't support the sport of bowling lol which was great. Something "twinged" lol in my knee. That was great. Afterwards I don't remember Tuesday was lots of fun (that's sarcastic) but afterwards was fun. We all went to Chili's or Friday's or someplace like that, got drinks and sat around and talked. I didn't feel like sitting at the adult table so me and Tara sat at the kiddie table and talked. Later Shannon joined us and we talked about Road trips etc (since they both have signed a contract guaranteeing me that they will come to OHIO) Then Maxine came to the table and we all had a great conversation about politics, the world, religion, books, life etc etc Lots of fun at the kiddie table. Wednesday I went to the Doctor... here's the only bad news of the week. Something is wrong with my knees. No ligament damage but it could be a number of things. I got X-Rays on Thursday in hopes of finding out. I go back to the doctor this wednesday. However, no strenuous (I keep thinking I spelled that wrong... someone help me out, I'm too lazy to type www.dictionary.com in the url box at the top of the browser) activity for awhile. I can't run anymore (so no marathon) Anyway Wednesday night we were all supposed to go out after work, so I texted Shannon to find out what the plans were. Apparently everyone backed out at work, but I was determined to do something so I get ahold of John Gray and we decided to go get dinner. Went to Johnny Carino's... Country Italian place... definitely not my favorite place. Anyway during dinner we starting talking about spontaneous trips and activities. Well John said he doesn't do anything so on the spur of the moment we went to the movies lol. Now I know that that doesn't sound like much.... oooo what spontaniety... going to the movies unexpectedly! lol and I agree, but it's a start for him. I'm almost always up for spontaneous trips like the Ohio trip that almost happened last weekend. (That is forgiven though, pending a future trip lol) Regardless, Oceans 13 was a good movie. Much better than "12" and better than most of the threequels of this summer. They sucked Thursday was a really fun day. X-Rays in the morning, then I came back to SHU only to go out to lunch right away to Panera with the crew. Lots of fun there. Haha then Paul Maxine and I went to "Coldstone" when we really went to Hallmark to get a card for Shannon's last day (which was friday) It was so much fun inside that store. Maxine and I had a big fight about what stuffed animal to get her. Then we fought about what card to get her. Luckily Paul came through with the card idea. It was a lot of fun over the rest of the afternoon and next morning getting everyone to sign it and not let Shannon in on anything. I mean we got her an obnoxiously large card, so we had to assign people to "Shannon duty". Also on Thursday I learned that Marie (one of the new people) knows every word to every song ever created. It was a lot of fun. She won the "Newcomer of the week award" Thursday night Shannon Scottie Tara and I went out to this fun Mini golf place. It rained when we first got there, but it let up enough for us to play and we all had a lot fun!! I'm going to miss our fun social activities now that Shannon is gone. Who else is going to plan them with me. Almost everyone else has class or a fiance or wife/husband or a life. After mini golf I went to Outback with Katie Reczek.... I hadn't seen her in awhile and we both had plans to go to outback before but had to reschedule, so it worked out. I love outback, I had a great dinner, their salmon is awesome! So Friday was Shannon's last day and we definitely surprised her. Well first we had a few last minute things to do, so we had people on Shannon duty while I went and got everyone to sign the card. Then once that was taken care of, we needed lunch so we decided on getting some California Pizza Kitchen but we had to go pick it up. So I took Shannon with me to go get the pizzas while we had Santino and Kacie go to Coldstone to get an ice cream cake. Though Coldstone was out of cakes, so they had to get a Carvel cake. A sidenote here before I finish: I think Jesus doesn't want me to have a Coldstone cake. I asked everyone for one on my birthday in November and I didn't get one and well it seems every time I want to get one, I can't :-( We get back from the Short Hills mall where California Pizza Kitchen is located with bags of food. It was funny, but then we had our Shannon Celebration. We gave her the big card and then the presents. We got her a Whole Foods gift card and then the stuffed dog that comes with a real star lol... yes a star in the sky. We named it Shining Shannon. It was really nice and fun. It will be sad without her in the office. However our Shannon adventure was not over yet. After work we decided to go to Legal Seafood back at the Short Hills Mall. It was me Shannon Scottie Maxine and John Chang. We walked around the mall first and I must go on a sidenote here too. Did you all know that the Discovery Channel stores are closing!?!?!?!? I'm very sad about this which means that I went and bought stuff Needless to say we all learned a lot about each other at dinner. However luckily, the point of focus never came by me too much hahaha, however even if it did, it would be boring. My life has been fun and exciting to me... but I don't know how many people would agree lol So after dinner it was back to Montclair for drinks at a bar however it was only Shannon and me and Andrea there. We had some fun there and that was it ok wow this is taking me a long time so I'm going to speed things up Saturday was moving day for some of my friends, or at least part moving day. I helped Shannon in the afternoon for a long time, though she wouldn't let me do a lot of things haha. It was fun though, watching the Office and baseball lol Saturday night was helping Kristen Williamson move. Again I didn't do much there but watch Baseball and Finding Nemo. However I did buy her KFC so it should all be taken care of lol. Kristen did make me work a lot more than Shannon lol but then again I was volunteering to help.... That was pretty much my whole day. Today I woke up, read the first harry potter book in like 2 hours and then John Gray and I went to see Katie Reczek in Bye Bye Birdie at a community theater. We had a lot of fun and went out for pizza afterwards... ok well I'm really getting bored of this so here's a quick rundown of exciting things to come Tuesday - Game Night Returns!!!! WITH ICE CREAM! haha Wednesday - Going to see "Inherit the Wind" on Broadway with Tara and Shannon Friday - Work BBQ at my house! Saturday through next Saturday - VACATION WITH FAMILY IN MARYLAND and D.C and a bit of NYC lol things are going well... let's hope they continue (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 16th, 2007
11:57 am	A whirlwind of a day Yesterday was a great day overall.... though there was crushing disappointment lol Anyway Thursday I was at Bunny's with people from work for like 4 hours lol it was awesome and fun and we all shared a lot But Friday I had to give a tour of the University for the first time in over a year lol, that was fun. Then it was softball time!!!! I didn't play too well and we lost but we had so much fun. A lot of people got hurt though lol. Let's run down the list Shannon - busted lip Brian Diaz - softball to the ribs Kellen - Softball to the shoulder Scottie - uhh... lol I threw the softball and hit him in the groin... Jaime - Tore up his leg in an attempted slide Santino - took off some skin making a great diving catch in the outfield Courtney - probably a bruised foot. So much fun and then we went to Cryan's. A lot of fun there. Dr. T picked up the tab too! Haha it seriously was a great way to end the week. However at Cryans I found out that Dr. Terry spent a great weekend in Cincinnati and that led me to be sentimental and nostalgic. Then I started talking about how we should go. A few beers and more conversation later, we were on our way to Ohio!!!! Except literally 10 minutes before I was walking out the door, the trip fell through. It was supposed to be Maxine, Shannon Scottie and I road tripping with Shannon's car (because mine was broke) but then Shannon's mom ruined our spontaneous Ohio trip with an unexpected trip. I was very excited and then disappointed but things happen lol. I just feel bad that I called everyone in Ohio lol. Oh well, hopefully there will be more opportunities for spontaneity in the future. Scottie Shannon and I went out to Hoboken last night which was fun but we were exhausted and didn't stay too long. Anyway other news of the day includes my car being broke. The sway bar underneath the car is cracked. Apparently that's ok and not that big of deal but I'm going to have to get it fixed. So that'll be fun Also, got the knee doctor appointment wednesday. Which is good because last night after Hoboken it was horrible! Something is really messed up with it oh well comment (Comment on this)
Thursday, June 14th, 2007
10:11 pm	2 months too late I also just received notification that I got accepted at Baylor too... I mean I guess I can't get mad since I work at Seton Hall admissions... and I realize that there are some students who are just hearing back from us now. Oh well there was no money attached and though it was the best program option for me, I think I'm going to be much happier in D.C. Now if only someone would decide to move down there with me (Comment on this)
9:40 pm	"I didn't say she was a tall bitch" Well I figured I should update this since I told everyone about it and that they should go read it. So let's see what's been going on with me lately? Not a whole lot, I'm leaving Seton Hall on August 1st so it's harder to keep my motivation for work. However work has been a lot of fun. I like the people I work with a lot. I feel bad a lot because I feel that some people in the office are maybe a bit frustrated with me... I think they feel that I don't do a lot of work and perhaps am a bit too sarcastic? Which is fair, I think the past 2 weeks have been somewhat bad in terms of how nice I have been to people. I feel as if a lot of people are getting a bad impression of me. There are two reasons for that in my opinion. The first is that there is a lot of other crap going on that I can't talk about here on livejournal but is seriously affecting me. As much as I love Ohio, sometimes it's hard being home. The second reason is that I laugh at everything and I will say a lot of things to be funny without really meaning them. I have gotten in trouble with that a few times in my life. Oh well... Anyway! OHIO!!!! oh man such a great time in Ohio. Let's go day by day Thursday night I got home, Greg and Donnie picked me up... we went and got Applebee's Appletizers lol and then went back to Donnie's house to play the Wii. The Wii is a lot of fun... big fan of that Friday I went to the driving range with Greg and Donnie... that was excited because I had crappy clubs and Donnie was a lefty... Well he had never went to the driving range either. Long story short, we threw the club about 75 yards out onto the range... and then we just booked it lol Afterwards again we went and played the Wii Friday night was the Reds game!!! Hesson me Scoot and Mikie in Mikie's dads truck which was great. It was Bronson Arroyo hat night, so anyone who wants to know what I would look like as a blonde, just go to facebook. That also meant that the typically 25% of the crowd that looked like white trash was substantially increased to about 75%. More importantly it was Homer Bailey's first start!!! I had never gone to an "important" baseball game before and this was exciting! Especially because it was not planned at all. I bought the tickets a long time ago lol The game was and Homer got the win and so it was a real fun night lol Saturday was great, family stuff all day pretty much. Had lunch, saw my cousin's soon to be new house (it's not completely built yet), had game day with the family (we played a bunch of board games and then the Wii again lol), then I went home and went to bed. Oh funny story in there... Donnie almost got us killed in his car, This guy pulled out in front of us and Donnie obnoxiously honked his horn about 50000 in about 25 seconds lol Anyway about .4 miles down the road we turn into my aunt's house and the guy follows. However he was going to just turn around lol but it was funny. Sunday was good, went to my aunt's house again to finalize vacation plans for July, then went and saw Knocked Up (again for me) with Greg and Donnie who doubted me when I told them that it was really good. Then we went up to Chris Hayes house and from there went to a park where we kicked a soccer ball around, played wiffle ball and then sand volleyball which was fun. After that we went to Greg's brother's house and saw his new entertainment room downstairs. That was fun. Heard some stories that I did not want to hear hahaha I'll never play basketball with any sort of jewelry on ever! Also watched Gay Robot which was hilarious lol Then I came back to NJ Now my car is messed up and my knees are hurting really bad. More importantly though we have a softball game tomorrow. It's Admissions vs The World. It's going to be a lot of fun, but I can't write much more in this tonight. Besides, if there is anyone who has read this, they're either bored or have just skimmed to this part. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 29th, 2007
4:07 pm	I can't wait til Joe's bluetooth movie So the past few weeks have been kind of crazy... I'll talk about the high points first well first let me say PLEASE MOVE TO D.C. WITH ME!!!!!!!! (in August) Anyway, so one night not too long ago we had game night! Katie Reczek's and my creation of recent alum fun during the week. Anyway I bought Family Feud and Imaginiff. We also played catchphrase, it was really a lot of fun but... BUT the best part of the night was seeing Tanya Paitakes and Joe Sarubbi and Sarah Lacheiwkziwiciz for the first time in a long time (Tanya like 2 years!) So much fun Also one night Brian O Malley, Adam Smego, Michael Catelli, his girlfriend Christine, Emily Alfstad, her boyfriend Jordan and her two friends went to Mt Fuji (a hibachi restaurant) and I think that'll probably be the last time we ever go there. I accidentally insulted an entire race of people, Adam insulted every single person at the table next to us. Emily I dont think will ever be in public with us again and wow... it was really a great night (except I hope Emily doesn't hate us) Katie Lowe and I became friends again. It was honestly good to talk to her again. Though unfortunately there will be more about this in the bad section Hanging out with the roommates have been fun too. Whether it's going to see all of these horrible "threequels" which I'll talk about in the bad section as well, or going to Rich's house for a BBQ or even destroying Joe in ping pong all of the time. It's been a good time I'm also hanging out a lot more with John Gray. I had only hung out with him once in 2007 (in February) before this past week. But it's good, we're goign to hang out a lot more because we're both going to be leaving NJ later this summer. We also don't really have a lot to do. Work has been fun. Oh man, this conference that we had to go to last week was hilarious! It reminded me of back in the good old days of Tennis in the MML. Monroe was always the loser kids who just didn't care what other people thought of us. We played against a bunch of stuck up rich kids who had been playing all of their life and we just joined for fun. Well at this conference Seton Hall was the "Monroe" of everyone there... Me Jaime and Scottie were pretty obnoxious and once we skipped most of our workshops to go to Taco Bell or to an abandoned room to write down a list of things that is inappropriate to discuss here on Livejournal Lots of fun, plus we went minigolfing. I love our summer hours here. We only work half day fridays so it's really nice. But yeah me Shannon Tara Jaime and Anthony went to mini golf and Olive Garden... lots of fun Also went to Staten Island the other night to Eddie's house. Lots of fun there. I came in 2nd!!! whoo hoo lol. It was a lot of fun, probably made a few more facebook friends... hopefully at least. I just hope "Jolly" John accepts Ok so now the Bad First: Softball! haha we're not doing so well this year. We're 1-10 and just having all sorts of frustration. I'm doing pretty good batting .571 but only have 3 runs scored and 1 RBI... we're just having problems at the plate. Second: Katie.... she wanted to get back together and for awhile I thought that I wanted it too... but in the end, I just didn't feel the same way. I feel so bad because I wanted us to be friends and now that may never happen. I'm more upset about this than people probably think or want me to be, but first of all no one deserves anything mean or hurtful to ever happen to them and second of all, no matter what ever happens in the future, Katie helped me more than anyone (outside of my family) to get over the death of my mother. It's sad the way it had to end. I couldn't let anything go on longer though because I knew that no matter how much time I gave it or anything else, I just wasn't feeling those feelings anymore.... I hope she is doing ok though.... That's about it for the bad stuff... except for things I don't want to talk about on here.... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 14th, 2007
7:39 pm	Just in case Hello Livejournal, In case you haven't heard Going to George Washinton University for my PhD in Political Science starting next year!!! Whoo hoo! who wants to move to D.C. with me? (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 9th, 2007
7:19 am	Mmmm What you say mmm that you only meant well Such a crazy past few days. We'll start with Friday Friday I took a sick day. I had been so exhausted from traveling the past 45 days that I needed a day off to just relax and do nothing. It was nice, I laid around and did a few errands. That night we went to go to see Spiderman 3. It was a good movie I think... I don't know it was just really wierd lol I was entertained at least but still it was so much different than the first two. The theater we were at though was horrible. Crying babies, cell phones, people talking and people snoring! I've always hated that theater. Every movie I've seen there has either been really horrible (the Number 23) or just a bad experience (like 8 Mile lol) Anyway that was friday. Oh it's important to note that I had a KFC Famous Bowl that night too... so delicious! Saturday was nice. I didn't really do much during the day. I played tennis with Joe Krause and ran my record to 2-0 against him lol. Then I came back, did some more yard work (I'm never going to have enough mulch) then we had a little Cinco De Mayo party at my house. That was pretty fun. Sunday was a really good day. First we had a softball doubleheader. The first game we didn't do well at all but the second game against the same team we almost won the game. It went into extra innings but we just couldn't hold them. Softball is a little frustrating right now for everyone on the team. We lost again last night. Most of our problems stem from hitting. Everyone is putting too much pressure on themselves at the plate and that is causing us to not score really any runs. We need to relax a bit and we'll be fine. Anyway after the game I went to Rachel Sanford's graduation party at Cryans. Lots of fun! Rachel is awesome and so is her family and everyone! I saw Brad Muller there! I haven't spoke to him in such a really long time. I also saw the Honors professors there, Dr. Stark and Dr. Webb. They remembered me! I was very surprised lol and after I told them all about me, they told me that I definitely need to go get involved in Ohio politics and shake some things up there. It was pretty cool. The only bad part about Sunday was when I went to Wendys for dinner and they forgot to give me my sandwich. so I paid $6 for a salad. It was really not cool at all. Anyway so that night, my phone started ringing. Now I just got a new phone and I haven't put all of my numbers into my phone yet so I didn't recognize the number at first. I was just like, well it has to be one of my friends. As soon as I pushed the answer button, I was like, oh my god that's Katie's number. Haha so yeah surprised at first, but it ended up being a really good conversation. I had sent her a graduation card and she was calling me to thank me for it and to I guess clear the air/awkwardness. But like I said, it ended up being a very good conversation. So that's really good. I don't like being upset at a person or mad at someone or really just not friends with someone I should be friends with and then vice versa. So it was good Monday was graduation and it was a very sad day. I missed a lot about being in college and about graduating. I also was just thinking about how wierd it will be that all of my other friends are graduating too. Crazy.... Anyway that was a nice day because of the 2 hour lunch meeting at Fridays lol though we discovered we have a mole in our ranks. I'm not sure who that mole is, but we have to smoke him/her out. Yesterday was a day of interviews pretty much and that was good Today though, is by far the highlight of the week for me. first of all, it's employee appreciation day which includes a picnic. Now the best part about this is that I CAN DRESS CASUAL!!! Whoo hoo! If you know me, then you know how much I absolutely hate "dressing up" Now I mean I don't mind dressing up for special occasions or important events, but if I'm expected to do work, I need to be comfortable and a nice shirt and tie and everything else that I have to wear does not make me comfortable. Then anyway tonight is the Return of the Game Night. Lots of people are coming too! Making a good dinner too. It should be fun, even though Nugent isn't coming lol Please leave a comment Current Music: Hide and Seek - Imogen Heap (Comment on this)
Monday, May 7th, 2007
12:43 am	At Rest It's good to put old things at rest. Much to say, little to write. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 30th, 2007
7:39 pm	Steele! Oh Seton Hall.... Lots of ups and downs for me the past few weeks. Mostly ups, but there were a few rough days, namely last thursday and friday. However, Friday night ended up being fun. There's so much I want to say about Seton Hall but I can't quite articulate it yet. However I will be very excited once this week is over with. No more traveling or hopefully dealing with parents. This week is also finals/graduation for a lot of my friends. There's a lot of people that I have been close to at some point in the past 4 years that are leaving and I may never see again. It's unfortunate but I hope to stay in touch with as many of them as possible. It seems harder for me to stay in touch with my college friends than it does with my Ohio friends..... oh well, there's a large contigent of Seton Hall people (ironically most of them from Ohio as well) going down to D.C. so I will be able to stay in touch with them. I have definitely grown and matured over the past 6/7 months that I've had this job. Though I'm still good friends with and most likely still act like a student. I feel more responsible and professional. I also know that I could very well have a great career in admissions if I so chose to.... I don't think that will be my career path though. Lately I've been acting like a grown up more and more. haha I've done a lot of gardening (planting, mulching, weeding etc etc) and have really tried to expand my cooking reportoire (that word is misspelled). However the cooking has had mixed results... I am too busy/lazy during the week to cook at night and on the weekends, I sometimes would rather relax than make a big meal. However, the return of my peanut butter chip chocolate cookies will happen soon. There wasn't a lot to write in this journal, probably because I'm really hungry, but also there's a lot going on that will remain unsaid for the time being. Time and place for everything and I look forward to sharing in the future comment! even though there wasnt much on this! lol (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 15th, 2007
6:12 pm	Welcome to Cleveland Indians Baseball... Game Time Temperature 35 degrees So I'm in Cleveland now. I've been awaiting this trip for awhile now. Probably because this is like a mini-vacation for me. Even though I'm here on work and have things to do, I have a lot of down time too. I desperately needed that too since I've been fighting a sickness for awhile. My life has turned around in the past 6 days. Monday was so full of bad news that all I could do was just laugh it off. I didn't get a few jobs and Grad schools had said no to funding. I had back up options, even if they were a little less glamorous. Life is a marathon, not a sprint and I needed to take my own advice and just sit back and enjoy it. That sounded so cliche haha anyway, good news though for me! I don't want to say anything about it though until it becomes for sure. I went to a Cleveland Indians game yesterday. Wow. Their stadium is so awesome! Jacobs Field just surpassed Camden Yards in my mind for best baseball stadium that I've been to. The list now includes (in order) Jacob's Field, Camden Yards, Great American BallPark, Yankee Stadium, Shea Stadium, RFK Stadium. I also, of course, attended games at the old Riverfront Stadium, which would still be ahead of Shea and RFK. However, game time temperature was 35 degrees! It was so cold!!! Not a fun time for a baseball game. Travis Hafner was wear short sleeves, it was funny. Anyway I stayed for 5 innings, felt like crap and went and checked into my hotel. My hotel is pretty nice, there's a pool lol. This morning, a bunch of black stuff came out of the sink on me. That was fun. It's all fixed now. I ordered room service last night!!! It was too cold/snowy outside and I felt really sick so I just ordered room service! The hot fudge sundae was delicious! I think I'm going to Denny's tonight ha! I've had some rough times lately too. The only one I want to talk about on here is the death of my friend Mike Billington. He would have graduated this year. I knew Mike primarily from the pep band and he was a good friend there. I feel bad because I couldn't go to the visitation or the funeral because I'm here in Cleveland. However I will send a card and talk to his mom, who I had talked to a lot before. It was coming and I knew this and I feel really bad that I never got a chance to go over and see him after it got really bad. I should have made time somewhere, but I did my best to send him messages. It hurts a little deeper for me too because he died of pancreatic cancer (same as my mom) and was actually diagnosed only a week or so after my mom passed away. Cancer just sucks. In other news, I need a hair cut. I'm not sure when I'm going to get one. Tomorrow I'm going to the Rock N Roll Hall of Fame. Then after the fair, I might go see my sister in Toledo, but I don't know yet. Ok well it's time for me to go to Dennys! (Comment on this)
Monday, April 9th, 2007
11:37 pm	Talk about a case of the Mondays though I'm trying not to complain as much today has been horrible 3 jobs turned me down 2 grad schools denied any possibility of money The president's office and archbishop office were coming down hard at me My boss wasn't happy with me and I got a huge ass paper cut today has just been bad (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 8th, 2007
10:30 am	I just wanna know where da gold's at fun times last night this break was short and I didn't get to see a lot of my friends, but that's alright. There will be plenty of time for that later. Though I don't know the next time I'll be in Ohio. Anyway a quick update I have scored a major victory in my new years resolution to gain weight. I had to go one belt hole lower! I'm too fat for the third hole any more!!!! I'm on the second hole now!!! Whoo hoo! I know most people are probably making an angry face right now because the goal is usually to go lower, but I'm excited! lol I just needed to tell someone that and well the mythical people that read this seemed like good people to tell Also, sad news, I had to push the marathon back... There's just no time to train right now. I'm upset about this because I was making good time... oh well Now I need to find one in June or July to run... hmmm I don't know how I'm getting home from the airport today oh well HAPPY EASTER (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 6th, 2007
3:08 pm	A much awaited update So let's talk future here.... a little worried about mine now... Arizona was fantastic! I had a great time, the people were awesome, the weather and location couldn't have been better and the attention they gave me was great! One of the students in the program there actually went to Madison, worked with Sarah Woodward and Mike Beckett, and lives off of Route 4. Another person is friends with someone I know at Seton Hall However, the program wasn't what I expected. Their program is very heavy on the quantitative side with so much focus on math and statistics. I worry that I would not be happy with the program and in the end, have a PhD in Political Science but it would be much engrossed with stats. I mean I guess that is how the Political Science field is moving, but I'm not sure that I like it. There is way more focus on the abstract and theoretical views about governing and politics. I found out that most of the professors don't even vote in elections! I haven't ruled out Arizona, especially because they are offering me a lot of money and an assistantship... but I don't know how I feel about the program really. I put my pictures up on facebook, though I only took pictures the last day of the trip, so there are none from the actual university, the spring training game, the nights at bars/people's houses, or really anything else. Just pictures of Cacti and mountains lol So not sure about that. Now Georgetown... I would be there in a heartbeat if I had money coming from them, however I can't justify taking loans out that would end up being close to $100,000 by the time it's all said and done. There's no way I would be able to pay that back for many many many years unless I win the lottery or marry rich. I was down in D.C. last weekend and had a great time. Me Julia Peter went and stay with Katy Carenza (who was Julia's roommate in the intern summer of 05) and we also saw Kait Brown!!!! Whoo hoo Had a lot of fun at Hooters in D.C. cheering Ohio State on against Georgetown lol and letting Peter see the cherry blossoms. Conclusion was that I absolutely love Washington D.C. and feel like it's a second home to me. I want to live there really badly, but it's so expensive. I can not afford it. I'm finally almost out of the red now after getting my tax refund. I don't know.... Baylor hasn't gotten back to me cuz they lost my transcript G.W. said you can come, but no money there either... sadly to say... Grad school might not be an option for next year. Which means what? I dont know. Staying in Jersey is a last option for me, even though I love my job. I could go try and work for some government somewhere (state or national) but the last time I tried that, it took about 9 months for them to get back to me. I can't wait that long. I guess technically I still have pending job opportunities in D.C. as well If everything falls through, I'll probably move back home for a little bit and figure out something here. Anyway, quick recap of other stuff. I've been traveling so much! The past few days I was in Salem county, NJ. I hadn't been down there since I was going out with Val 2 years ago. Funny thing is, I can remember a lot about that. I drove on the same roads, ate at the same Taco Bell and went to the same mall in Delaware that I had 2 years ago with her. I haven't talked to her in a long time, maybe that's for the best, but I do know that I have matured enough to the point where I have no ill will towards her. I won't lie and say that I always felt that way. I was angry for a good amount of time after we broke up. Needless to say, I'm past that now. As for Katie, I haven't talked to her since Jan 2nd, nor seen her since the 19th (I believe?) of January. That's fine, I have nothing against her either, but no real desire to go out and talk to her. I hope all is well with her and with everyone. April is going to be hectic! I will not be in the office for consecutive days at all! This month I'll be or have been at Salem county, Home!, Indianapolis, D.C., Cleveland, Baltimore and various other parts of NJ. To a point that excites me, but I'm also missing the first part of the softball season (we're going to win it all!) and I have to postpone my marathon running due to a lack of time to train during April. I'll find one in June to run or something. Not a lot else is happening... it is baseball season so that is fun. I'm going to go to as many games as possible this year, in as many stadiums as possible as well. We'll see how that works but for now, I need a shower it's good to be home in the O-H! (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 25th, 2007
11:08 pm	TEAM AZ! haha there will be a recap on Arizona later... but I'm still here and it's beautiful... the people are nice, the mountains nad weather and scenery is incredible... there will be pictures on facebook of course lol anyway the big news is that I"M GOING TO THE COLBERT REPORT ON TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 14th, 2007
9:15 am	Catch me if you can My schedule the next few weeks is crazy An overview Tonight is a night fair in Monroe Twp (I wish that was in OHIO lol) Tomorrow night is HIBACHI! oh and Women's NIT game Friday night is a few things going down Saturday is St. Patty's day but I'll be in an airport going home! Saturday through Wednesday I'll be in Ohio Wednesday I get back, go to work thursday and thursday night I fly out to Arizona I'm in Arizona until monday morning and then as soon as I get back I have to go to another fair the whole day. Then that thursday I have a big reception the next friday I go down to D.C. to visit Katy then I come back and have two fairs and don't even really come in to work That thursday is Easter break and I'm home I come back do a fair in Indianapolis then it's to D.C. for an Open house for like 12 hours then back to Jersey and fly out to Cleveland for awhile Come back and two fairs in a row THEN it's quiet until May when I have fairs three days in a row then go home after that to run my marathon! So I won't see anyone again ever lol except for my ohio friends which I'll see alot! (2 Comments |Comment on this)